I’ve really been dragging my heels, I know. Having returned from a wonderful break in Cornwall, with a camera and phone full of amazing places, I have shared very little of them. Well, a few glimpses of our lovely holiday as it happened over on Instagram. The truth is I’ve hardly had time to process the holiday in my own mind. We arrived home late on Saturday night with a new school term starting on Monday. I had left for our holiday having packed the PE kit, re-found the lunchbox and even got around to shopping for (and washing and ironing!) uniform in the next size up. So there was a little borderline smugness of for once being one of the organised-type mums, ha! Of course, this is ridiculous, as there is always something we forget. This year it was shoes. Thankfully I asked Mia to find her school shoes on the day before term started, and of course she had grown loads over the summer, and the shoes that were only a few weeks old at the end of term were now tiny! And so we had gone from chilled holiday wanderings in the Cornish countryside to a busy shopping mall with two grizzly children, all in the space of 24 hours.
Work happened too this week, and the proper return to pre-school for Joe, who has been very much a part-timer over the summer break. And there were plenty of things that didn’t really happen at all, such as laundry and house cleaning, and even proper cooking. A and I ended up having sandwiches for dinner two nights running. I know that this will all improve and hope that I will find my new term rhythm and motivation soon.
I just struggle with change, and I am really not ready for the summer to end. I love so much about the Autumn, but it means that we are heading towards the winter which I like less. Those short dark days can seem to go on for endless months, and sometimes no amount of cosy blankets, candles and comfort food can compensate for this. Give me a week or so and I’ll be going with the change of season more happily rather than resisting it. I will be the one running around the park through the crunchy leaves, taking photos of the spider webs in the dewy mornings and searching for a pumpkin spice latte.